mom-dad...plz forgive me..

mom-dad...i dont know when i'll be able to tell my feelings to both of you...but i just want to let you both know that i have always felt things...its just that i have never been able to let it out...today m missing u both more than ever...something happened today which let me understand that there is no one who can ever understand me more than you both...the love u give me is infinitely more than what one can even think...actually i don't have anyone except you who would even think about me...maa throughout my life i have hurt u with my actions...my actions have brought tears in your eyes...i know if i apologize to you...you will forgive me for everything...u might not be able to understand why i m apologising...you will hug me like there is nothing around more important than me...and i know there isn't...but i wont...cuz with each passing second i want to realize my mistakes and learn not to repeat them...i want to torture myself...i know i m the worst son a mom can have...we have seen so many things...so many phases but both of you have never let me feel the hard ones...what u have given me is love,love and love...i wish i could have understood it before...don't ever forgive me for my wrongs...this will be the biggest and the most deserving punishment for me...dad...u toil hard...so hard that i feel that i am nothing in comparison to you...whatever you do is for me...and i know you love me more than anything...more than mom...more than harshu...more than anything....m sorry to you for not paying respect to your sacrifices...i always lived life as i wanted to...i never cared what you said...but dad believe me your son has changed...over the last one month i have seen life clearer than it has ever been...your son is missing you both more than anything...right now nothing in the world means to me more than you both...i m sorry for betraying you both twice in my life...i promise i wont betray u ever again...i know you both will never leave me... everything you both do is for my happiness...i will live my life as you both want me to...i kw...i have been a very stubborn child...i never had shame in my eyes for my wrongs...i never had tears in my eyes...but mom-dad my life has changed...all i m having at the moment is tears...nothing else...i m writing all this with the hope that one day you both will read this...and you will understand that your son has a heart...i m not heartless...its just m not able to tell what i feel...you people are my everything...

Harshu you brother is a very stong person...its just a weak moment...he luvs u...vry much..

meow m sorry...its just that i take time to adjust to new things...hope u'll forgive me too...